Until I started feeling Cookie move, I knew I'd lost him/her. I just knew it. There was pretty much no doubt in my mind that I'd be having another dead baby. I went into my first and second scans telling Scott all would be okay, but knowing it wasn't. And guess what? S/he's still there, belting me from the inside at every opportunity. It's so normal to have these feelings whether you've had a loss or not, and that's okay. It's alright to be afraid sometimes. If you're really badly scared, who cares about clogging up the public system? Go have a quick scan (when I say quick I just mean the actual scan, not the waiting times, etc. of course)

Hey, if you want we could see if they can do a quick check on you after my u/s next Monday?